26 June 2016

So I was thinking to myself how to get rid of the hemorrhoid without surgery. I don't have time for surgery (maybe some day) and I don't want to pay for it. I started thinking today of Vicks Vap o Rub. I love the smell of that stuff. I was afraid to just try it, so I googled it and a lot of people said that it worked very well. Some said it burned like crazy. So, It tried it. Yes. It burns pretty bad, but the pain is not worse than the hemorrhoid itself and yet there's a chance it could get better.

My Ulcerative Colitis isn't better yet. My stomach hurts a lot but I ate today. I had some roast beef (worst thing for me.. well, one of them) potatoes and gravy and then in the evening I had some cream of chicken soup. Quite small amounts were consumed, but I ate it and I haven't reacted too terribly badly yet.

My poop for the last week has consisted of a stream of total black pee out my butt. Sometimes there's a pinch of texture in there, but mostly black pee. It smells like a person who has been dead for a couple of weeks or however long it takes and there body is swollen with rotted liquid and then someone comes around and pokes it with a stick and rotten fester pops forth with a stench so powerful starving wild animals wouldn't touch it. Right now my butt smells like Vicks Vap O Rub though.

25 June 2016

Well, the hemorrhoid was so painful today at work I just about passed out. I was sent out to pick up garbage in the sweltering humidity and it was about 90 F. I was absolutely soaked in sweat in about fifteen minutes. At the end of forty-five minutes, I couldn't see because sweat was pouring off my face and into my eyes. It stung as well. Every time I bent over to pick up garbage, the hemorrhoid squeezed and I could barely stand the pain. I had to do it over and over again to pick up garbage. I began to become really dizzy, and since I could scarcely see anyway and it was close to my normal break time I went inside. My co-workers said I was very white and asked me if I was OK. I said I'm just going to cool off in the cooler (the one we store things in) for a couple of minutes. I could only stand it in there for what seemed like five minutes. I began shivering. I was still wet with sweat though. I took my break then began helping at the front end back-floating. My manager, well one of them, asked me how the garbage picking was going, so I supposed she was annoyed. I told her I was soaked in sweat so I came in. The other manager said I did the right thing. So that saved me at least.

Anyway, the hemorrhoid was hurting terribly as well. I also had to continue to go to the washroom which made me look bad at work and also aggravated the hemorrhoid. To make a long story short, when I got up after finally getting to sit down at seven at night there was some blood there and at the back of my jeans. I am hoping it seeped out of the hemorrhoid. It was still very painful though and so I had a hot bath and tried to cut it with my box cutters to have the inside of it leak out and I could heal. Well, now I have a flap of skin there and nothing came out. I put Melaleuca oil on it. I hope that's ok because it burns like crazy. Very very painful. It's still swollen out of my but and I can't imagine working like this tomorrow, but I'll have to.

It doesn't help that I have to poop every hour.

23 June 2016

I had two taste samples at work (Costco) and two eggs for dinner and a tiny amount of frozen yogurt at Tutti Frutti and two pieces of red liquorice. That's it. All day. I feel no hunger though. Everyone else was eating, I know I'm supposed to, and I like the taste. Anyway, from last night's shepherd's pie I had very bad bowls this morning and had to go to the washroom about 15 times at work. So my hemorrhoids returned. A huge painful engorged piece off flesh protruding out of my butt. It is so painful that moving hurts it and standing still hurts it. I have to poop about 40 + times per day and each time I'm terrified of the pain that is going to come and the hemorrhoid becomes larger. It feels like it is smaller than a golf ball and much bigger than a walnut. My stomach hurts too. I think that there may be less blood though. I'm so scared of the hemorrhoid. It's so painful and weird.

21 June 2016

My stomach took a full on lunch at Toscana's. Well, I ate the soup, then had a few bites of the sandwich or whatever it was... it was kind of like a burrito with chicken and peppers and a chipole sauce. At night I ate the rest of the sandwich. I shouldn't have and my stomach is in turmoil and I'm afraid to walk any distance from a toilet, but I ate it!!

20 June 2016

Well, I thought I was doing well. I tried to eat a meal a couple of days ago and the repercussions were not too bad. I only went to the washroom about twenty times afterwards and it never really ended. So then I ate a meal again the next day. Same result. The blood wasn't too bad. Today I ate a bowl of mashed potatoes since the infinitely intelligent doctors have that listed as one of the foods to eat if you have UC. The result was a bowl full of clotted and loose blood flooding the bowl, so I was too bold with the food thing. I lost another pound as well. Now I'm 139 lbs. I'm dizzy when I stand. I also still owe the doctor money ($168.00). There's change as well, but I'm not sure how much change. I just paid them $50.00 last month. My stomach always hurts. If I move, it hurts and a wave of sickness overwhelms me. It's kind of like when you are about to have a bought of diarrhea and you get that wave of nausea and overwhelming illness, then you poop and it all comes out and you feel better. I actually run a fever as well. My fever is usually 101.2.

14 June 2016

Today was better than yesterday. My stomach hurt, but I didn't have a fever all day I think. My muscles feel weak and it's difficult to work, but I haven't had to urgently poop all day until I came home. My stomach hurts, but not as bad. It wasn't until after I had a second chocolate milk after work and a bag of Funions that my stomach started to broil. I thought the Funions would be OK since there's very little nutritional value in them. There's probably oil though. I think it was the chocolate milk that was bad too, but that stuff is good for replenishing nourishment which is what I need. That is all I ate today. I drank some water as well. There's less blood.

Ok, it's evening now. Because I was feeling so healthy I ate two breaded chicken breasts with bar-b-Q sauce and a small bowl of musilix. Now I feel totally ill. I have to use the washroom constantly. I didn't check for blood. My current temperature is 101.2 degrees Fahrenheit. I'm worried about being able to handle work tomorrow. At least today went well and I felt good the entire time. I was exhausted, but my stomach didn't hurt as bad.

13 June 2016

I have a temperature of 101.2 since yesterday when I took it; Possibly longer, but I just took it yesterday for the first time. Moving hurts my stomach. I drank a chocolate milk, 150 calories and a large pink lemonade at Taco Bell which tasted horrible. I also had water. that's all I've been able to take in all day. It's now 4:33 p.m. in the afternoon. I don't want to eat because I want to go to work tomorrow. I can't believe I haven't crapped everything I've ingested out of me. I've gone to the bathroom about 25 times. What could possibly be left to poop out?

My skin feels cold frequently and I'm cold when other people aren't. It is a good thing it is in the 80s all week. I have a pounding headache. I think that's from lack of blood. It's bearable though. I took two Ibuprofen even though I don't really like taking medication. I need to get to work. I have Thursday and Friday off, then Saturday and Sunday. I have four days to try to make myself better. I can't stand doing this. Like work isn't difficult enough without wondering if you'll pass out while working. I stock shelves for five hours. After that the tasks are variable. Today I pulled weeds for three hours after stocking shelves. It was over 80 degrees Fahrenheit out. I was dizzy every time I stood up and thought I'd poop myself almost constantly. I have two more years at this job though to make over $50,000.00/year. That's my goal. Last two more years. Even if I were to become fabulously wealthy somehow before then, I want to make it to five years. Come on Body! You can do it!!