31 May 2017

Just mailed off my POOP to Mayo Clinic. I've been there before, but never mailed my poop there before. I informed the FedEx guy that it was poop I was mailing in case it was offensive and I shouldn't do it, even though I knew I could do it. It seems so wrong. Anyway, the FedEx guy was fine with it. He told me he had to mail his poop before as well, so it's all good. That was pretty nice of him. Now that I'm going to Mayo Clinic on the 12th and 13th, I seem quite healthy relatively. I still have run a fever though from UC and I was up every 20 minutes all night the night before then had to go to work. That was horrible.

The poop sample was total liquid. It was pee from my poop. Not urine, but liquid poop. At least it mixed well with the preservative. It stank so much. Working in a lab must be so horrible. Imagine getting samples of peoples' poop from all over. *gag*

10 May 2017

Great article: https://www.google.com/amp/s/amp.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2012/apr/29/ulcerative-colitis-painful-crippling-humiliating

9 May 2017

I was basically doing ok for a couple of days then tonight, I ate too much and now I am feeling not ok. My body is aching terribly. Profound aches all over. I keep having to go to the washroom. If I cough lately, I poop a little. This is in the last six months. It's horrible. It's so difficult to be public friendly at work when I'm so sick.

4 May 2017

Feeling better today. Still ill, but better, so that's good. I think today I am tired because of simply needing sleep. Had a nap when I came home from work and I'm much better now. My stomach hurt a lot in the morning, but it got better and now it's pretty good.

25th April 2017

Well crapped my pants at work today. At least it was somewhat chunky and not completely runny. I was wearing a sanitary napkin so it caught it. I was able to make it to the washroom for the rest. I had to tell my work people about it and go home. I could have stayed if I had an extra pad, but I didn't and I didn't want to buy a Costco sized pack just then when everyone knew. I also was feeling horribly defeated. I tried to run to the closest washroom which was at the back of the store from where I was in receiving and when I got there the door was locked and someone was in there. After that I knew I wouldn't make it. I tried to run to the front of the store to the other washrooms and I got only about 1/4 of the way and poop squeezed out. My stomach was in a great deal of pain the entire morning and after I tried to make myself poop more out (more did come out) my stomach still hurt. I went to the washroom a couple of more times and I had to use toilet paper to create a barrier between me and my underwear in case of further issues. The toilet paper kept riding up and moving around and I was afraid it would come out of my pants in public. Also, if I had another accident it would go straight onto my underwear and then onto my jeans and everyone would smell and see it.

All I can do it make it home to sleep. I am completely exhausted ALL THE TIME. I get excited when I know I can to go sleep and lie in bed. When it's bed time I am so happy.

12 April 2017

Started bawling today. Couldn't find my keys and I am missing appointments. Slept all night and until one in the afternoon. Got out of bed at 2:00 p.m. Had a fever of 101.4 F most of the night. Now it's down to 100. On the toilet all night but after 8:00 a.m. I was better and slept solid until 1:00 p.m. Still have the fever though. Eating chicken noodle soup and a bagel at 4:58 p.m. It'll probably keep me ill until tomorrow when I have to work. I must eat though. I am so sick. I keep crying. It's so difficult having a life and working and dealing with family and trying to manage this disease. I'm so completely exhausted. My butt can't take pooping anymore.

1 April 2017

It has been really bad lately in terms of exhaustion. I came home from work yesterday and fell asleep at 3:30 p.m. then slept until almost 7:00 p.m. Then I went back to sleep at 10:00 p.m. and woke up at 7:00 a.m. At around noon today I was so exhausted I wanted to sleep on the floor of the hairdresser's place while waiting to get my hair cut. I was fantasizing about it and feeling like I wanted to cry because I wanted to just sleep so badly. I am finally alone at home and I can sleep, but my daughter will be home soon from playing at the park and I want to spend some more time with her.

I have had terrible diarrhea lately. The blood content in it varies. Sometimes there's none and sometimes there's a lot. When there's a lot of blood by abdomen hurts very badly and when I poop it feels like I might poop my insides out. That happens as well. Unrelated, my shoulder hurts terribly much from work (lifting all the time and too much repetitively for eight hours straight with breaks of 1/2 hour for lunch and two fifteen minute breaks). A lot of people don't actually work like that that work at Costco, it just so happens that that is the type of job I have there. I am asking to move, but I don't know if where I move to will be any better. I don't know what else I can do for work.