9 July 2016

I went to the walk-in clinic. I don't have a family practitioner and this complicates things quite a bit. I need to have a doctor for referral and I don't have one. The tests they did at the walk-in clinic indicated that my hemoglobin level was at 8. It's supposed to be twelve I think. Since I know nothing of medical things (I was a medical writer but on studies and I'm familiar with that terminology but not these things).

The walk-in clinic results said that I am almost to the point where I need a blood transfusion. I'm exhausted, I have very little energy. When I walk a small distance I have to sit down. I am trying to keep going at my job and my side job. I'm so tired though. When I get up I'm dizzy. My heart thumps weird as well.

There's an awesome doctor here who is going to accept me. It will be at least a week before I can get in to see her though. So I have to last at least that long. I could sleep all day.

4 July 2016

I had chips today with a hot dog. I spent all day at the beach from 9:30 a.m. until 4:30 p.m. I had no problems until after I ate chips and the hot dog. It was a sausage actually. I just about crapped myself and ran to the washroom and made it. I kept doing that once I arrived home. David took my daughter until eight. They are coming back for fireworks. There are a few other people coming as well for fireworks. I think they'll be mostly outside.

The entire morning I was OK. I am definitely better though. Despite what the situation came to today. I still feel better overall. This evening I don't, but during the day I did.

2 July 2016

I think I'm doing better. I don't have a fever. I have an appetite. I ate today. Six little Brazil Cheese Buns and a Sausage that I baked in the oven. I also had strawberries and rhubarb boiled with some sugar and oatmeal. I had juice as well. Then I had a mango. I crapped so much at one time in the evening that it seemed as if I crapped my entire insides out. It was liquid, but there was a bit of texture to it. It's difficult to tell if there's blood in it as I'm having my period as well, but I think I'm not bleeding very much out my butt anymore. So, I just reduced my food intake and try to take vitamin supplements basically. I didn't watch what I ate today, but if I had, I bet it would be much better if I did watch it.

26 June 2016

So I was thinking to myself how to get rid of the hemorrhoid without surgery. I don't have time for surgery (maybe some day) and I don't want to pay for it. I started thinking today of Vicks Vap o Rub. I love the smell of that stuff. I was afraid to just try it, so I googled it and a lot of people said that it worked very well. Some said it burned like crazy. So, It tried it. Yes. It burns pretty bad, but the pain is not worse than the hemorrhoid itself and yet there's a chance it could get better.

My Ulcerative Colitis isn't better yet. My stomach hurts a lot but I ate today. I had some roast beef (worst thing for me.. well, one of them) potatoes and gravy and then in the evening I had some cream of chicken soup. Quite small amounts were consumed, but I ate it and I haven't reacted too terribly badly yet.

My poop for the last week has consisted of a stream of total black pee out my butt. Sometimes there's a pinch of texture in there, but mostly black pee. It smells like a person who has been dead for a couple of weeks or however long it takes and there body is swollen with rotted liquid and then someone comes around and pokes it with a stick and rotten fester pops forth with a stench so powerful starving wild animals wouldn't touch it. Right now my butt smells like Vicks Vap O Rub though.

25 June 2016

Well, the hemorrhoid was so painful today at work I just about passed out. I was sent out to pick up garbage in the sweltering humidity and it was about 90 F. I was absolutely soaked in sweat in about fifteen minutes. At the end of forty-five minutes, I couldn't see because sweat was pouring off my face and into my eyes. It stung as well. Every time I bent over to pick up garbage, the hemorrhoid squeezed and I could barely stand the pain. I had to do it over and over again to pick up garbage. I began to become really dizzy, and since I could scarcely see anyway and it was close to my normal break time I went inside. My co-workers said I was very white and asked me if I was OK. I said I'm just going to cool off in the cooler (the one we store things in) for a couple of minutes. I could only stand it in there for what seemed like five minutes. I began shivering. I was still wet with sweat though. I took my break then began helping at the front end back-floating. My manager, well one of them, asked me how the garbage picking was going, so I supposed she was annoyed. I told her I was soaked in sweat so I came in. The other manager said I did the right thing. So that saved me at least.

Anyway, the hemorrhoid was hurting terribly as well. I also had to continue to go to the washroom which made me look bad at work and also aggravated the hemorrhoid. To make a long story short, when I got up after finally getting to sit down at seven at night there was some blood there and at the back of my jeans. I am hoping it seeped out of the hemorrhoid. It was still very painful though and so I had a hot bath and tried to cut it with my box cutters to have the inside of it leak out and I could heal. Well, now I have a flap of skin there and nothing came out. I put Melaleuca oil on it. I hope that's ok because it burns like crazy. Very very painful. It's still swollen out of my but and I can't imagine working like this tomorrow, but I'll have to.

It doesn't help that I have to poop every hour.

23 June 2016

I had two taste samples at work (Costco) and two eggs for dinner and a tiny amount of frozen yogurt at Tutti Frutti and two pieces of red liquorice. That's it. All day. I feel no hunger though. Everyone else was eating, I know I'm supposed to, and I like the taste. Anyway, from last night's shepherd's pie I had very bad bowls this morning and had to go to the washroom about 15 times at work. So my hemorrhoids returned. A huge painful engorged piece off flesh protruding out of my butt. It is so painful that moving hurts it and standing still hurts it. I have to poop about 40 + times per day and each time I'm terrified of the pain that is going to come and the hemorrhoid becomes larger. It feels like it is smaller than a golf ball and much bigger than a walnut. My stomach hurts too. I think that there may be less blood though. I'm so scared of the hemorrhoid. It's so painful and weird.

21 June 2016

My stomach took a full on lunch at Toscana's. Well, I ate the soup, then had a few bites of the sandwich or whatever it was... it was kind of like a burrito with chicken and peppers and a chipole sauce. At night I ate the rest of the sandwich. I shouldn't have and my stomach is in turmoil and I'm afraid to walk any distance from a toilet, but I ate it!!