14 October 2013

I think hospitalization is coming soon if I don't get this UC under control.  Ate nothing all day and barely drank anything and I didn't feel a desire to eat anything.  I worked for five hours physical labor, then came home and had two glasses of juice and tomato soup with rice in it.  That soup and juice landed me on the toilet with terrible cramps. All day without food or drink and my stomach still hurt so much I could barely work.  I lost two pounds in the last couple of days, but I'm still healthy.  I wish I could just be OK without worrying about my stomach and ulcers and crapping.

Got this off the internet:

13 October 2013

Body aches are better today.  Just very tired.  My body still aches.

Hemorrhoids are at their worst today from crapping so much the past couple of days.  Had church today.  It was really great.  I love church.  I love the people there as as well and learning.  This photo is from Maplewood State Park last year I think, or the year before. I think...  Can't remember.

12 October 2013

Feel horrible today.  My butt hurts so much from crapping so much.  I feel like I crapped my body weight.  I barely ate anything so it must be crap from a couple of days.  My body is also aching TERRIBLY all over.  I wish I could cry to just let it all out, but it doesn't hurt enough to cry.  Just an unyielding ache that never ends.  I just want to sleep all the time and I am so exhausted.  I bought all the supplements I ran out of and I'm starting to take them again.  I just fantasize about sleeping all day.

I got a good job even though I was hesitant to apply since I would just have to quit anyway, but I don't know if I can do it sometimes.  It is pretty good pay and I'll just increase in pay as time goes by if I can handle it.  It is pretty physical, which normally I would appreciate rather than sitting at a desk all day.  Sitting at a desk is fine if you can get up whenever you choose, but sitting at a desk for hours and not being able to get up because you have so much work to do is not OK.  Moving all the time though is exhausting when your body aches anyway.  I thought I might cry at work, but I didn't.  Tough as nails I am :).

11 October 2013

Body is falling apart.  I started feeling well and didn't go out and buy new supplements when I ran out and my entire body is falling apart now.  It's driving me crazy.  I actually crapped my pants at work, but luckily blood came out instead of crap.  Luckily I was wearing a pad as it was the ending of my period, so I was covered.  Everyone keeps asking me why I didn't just go to the washroom.  The issue is, the urgency is so immediate there is no time to go to the washroom.

7 September 2013

I had a kale, cucumber, banana, almond smoothie today and it didn't hurt my stomach.  It looks like something I would puke up just from the smell, but it wasn't actually that disgusting.  It tastes OK.  It still looks revolting though... something like this:



I thought I wouldn't be able to drink it, and if I could drink it, I would puke it.  It all stayed down though, and my ulcers are fine.  No affect actually.  I am eating Redmond's Clay as well though. That must help. I'm petty sure it helps anyway.  I am pretty excited to get vitamins and minerals into me.

I weigh 134 lbs now, but I don't look very thin.  I mean, I look thin, but not skeletal.  So I guess I can take it.  I'm pretty happy about it.  Fat or thin, I need to make sure proper nutrients are in my body.

This link looks great to me for trying it out.  Mine is just semi-ok:

http://www.mindbodygreen.com/0-7956/5-delicious-green-smoothies-for-beginners.html

3 September 2013

Feeling much better overall.  I am still battling quite a lot of blood, however, I have my good days.  I am permanently dizzy now and I now weigh 134 lbs, but I still feel I can control the UC if I am careful.  It is very irritating sometimes dealing with going to the washroom constantly, but worth it not to have to have my colon removed or take drugs.

30 July 2013

I'm doing much much better.  It's almost like I'm a normal person.  This is why I haven't blogged in a long time.  Whenever I'm feeling well I don't blog because I have no complaints :) I'm off to bring my daughter to Royal Winnipeg Ballet next week.  We are also going to see Mary Poppins while we are there.  We are leaving on the 3rd in the morning and returning on the 19th.  The Rainbow Stage Mary Poppins show is on the 9th.  We're hoping to get tickets for then anyway.  The Royal Winnipeg Ballet students are going that night as well, so it would be good if my Aunt can get tickets for that same night.  I'm bringing my daughter Jacqueline and Jordan is staying behind because he must earn money for College which he is going to have to start soon.  He's going to take a Computer Programming degree.  Hopefully he can get a job in that area of work.  I am looking for a job as well.  I didn't want to apply for one when I was very ill.  Who wants to hire someone who needs to spend about eight hours a day on the toilet? It would be dishonest gaining employment and not letting my employer know that.