15 December 2016

I am so tired. It is such a struggle to do anything. Sleep is such a huge fantasy of mine. If I sit still I start to fall asleep regardless of what time it is. My intestines have been doing better the last little while. I have to race to the washroom, but in general, better than usual. I just about missed work last week, but I made it through.

11 December 2016

I am so exhausted. I"m exhausted all the time.

Here's an article which indicates that I am not the only one:

http://www.everydayhealth.com/hs/ulcerative-colitis-treatment-management/colitis-causing-fatigue/

24 November 2016

So sick I was scared. I'm all alone right now. I was thinking, if I die, that's it. I will be dead for a while and no one will know. That's what I feel like a lot when I go to the washroom. I guess it's bad I'm not taking drugs, but everyone I know who takes them is sicker than me and has missed significantly more work. Toughing it out has seemed to be the healthier option. I have no allergic reaction to medications because I am not taking any. I can feel when I eat the wrong things and I know what to avoid.

22 November 2016

I feel mildly like puking and I always have to use the washroom urgently and I also feel all over sick. I don't know a better word to describe the all over sick feeling. I am so exhausted it's incredible. I force myself to do things though. I clean the laundry, my room, cook and work full time. I really want to write a book, but it's so time-consuming in addition to all other responsibilities. The aching joints haven't been as bad lately at least.

20 November 2016

I was visiting someone and I became very ill. My entire body started sweating profusely. I thought I was going to vomit and the vomit feeling wouldn't go away. I thought I had to go to the washroom really badly but when I tried to use it nothing happened. the person I was with drove me home. I am still very nauseous now. I feel somewhat like I have a headache. I almost feel I have to go to the washroom again, but it won't work.

13 November 2016

I googled what foods to eat to get more magnesium in my body as this is supposed to help with joint pain. This is what I got: High magnesium foods include dark leafy greens, nuts, seeds, fish, beans, whole grains, avocados, yogurt, bananas, dried fruit, dark chocolate, and more.

All these foods cause terrible stomach issues except avocados and bananas. I'm allergic to dark chocolate. I guess I can take magnesium pills and it seems from reading the internet (questionable source) that if I take too much I'll just poop it out. Like I don't poop enough. 

My joints hurt so badly I can't do anything except sit here. I try to do stuff anyway, and I can and I do. I do things more than most people, but I used to do way more than that even before this joint problem.

11 November 2016

Wow, I'm feeling sick. It's just a constant level of yuck. Hovering on nausea but not quite there, hovering on headache, but not quite there, exhausted but not totally. Basically I need to lie down. My stomach is distended but not too badly. This morning it hurt pretty badly and all morning it hurt quite a bit. I went home from work. I wish I could get things done, but I am just lying here. I guess that's why one would go home. Still though. I feel like my time is being wasted. I'm so tired though.