7th June 2016

My stomach is a boiling pit of pain and burning. I am up for work. I have to be there by 5 a.m. and it is a twenty minute drive. It's 3:07 a.m. right now. I'm going to get in the tub. I've been up every hour since I went to bed at ten p.m. I've been up constantly since 3:50 a.m. sitting on the toilet.

I didn't eat very much most of yesterday. I thought it would be OK to eat a potato since the doctors (who usually don't know anything about UC) suggested potato and applesauce and rice as the foods that are OK to eat). Once again, they are dead wrong. They know very little about this disease. Applesauce is just as bad as eating a chocolate bar or cereal with whole grain or anything of the sort. It makes no difference what I eat. It all hurts. Meat is the worst followed by anything with fiber, followed by ANY fruit or vegetable, followed by anything with protein in it followed by... don't know. When it gets really bad, chewing gum hurts it. Aspartame or sucrolose, even the tiny amount that is in gum is very awful. I think Stevia is OK. Not sure.

Lipton soup with no real chicken in it can be digested with little disturbance. The powdered kind that comes in a package that is mostly water with some flavor.

I can't write more. I am off the toilet and in the tub. I have to get ready for work.

13 May 2016

Had meatballs for dinner last night. Had to go home sick today from work. I went to work for five hours, but basically exhausted the entire time. Couldn't do it. Shaky and weak now. Blood and crap in the toilet.

11 May 2016

Thought I'd be ok since I was doing well the past two days. As it turns out, I acted a little prematurely. I'm still not that bad, meaning as bad as I know it could be, but I am scared to leave the house to take my daughter to piano lessons. She's sick anyway, or so she says, but I'm making her go to piano. She missed last week and we're paying for these lessons. She also enjoys piano quite a bit. She practiced an hour yesterday and over an hour today, even though she claimed she was sick and missed school. David let her miss school. She stayed home with him.

She doesn't have a fever or anything. There are chunks of blood coming from me.

9 May 2016

I felt pretty good today besides the morning. I wasn't running a fever. Past couple of days it was around 99, so not, I guess, officially a fever, but elevated temperature anyway. My body aches a lot and I'm exhausted, but I only had washroom issues during the night, but could sleep most of it, and in the morning until around 8:30 a.m.

I just ate food again: rice with cinnamon, brown sugar and raisins. I also had some Ferrero Rocher chocolates. I had to eat them. It was a Mother's Day gift. Had to show my appreciation. Anyway, that's it. I hope I can handle it well and work feels ok tomorrow. I don't want to feel sick tomorrow and I want to go to the washroom like a normal person and only once.

7 May 2016

Ate at a dinner put on for Mother's Day at church. I'm paying for it now. My stomach is in turmoil, or more accurately, my intestines, more specifically, my large intestine. I've gone to the washroom about thirty-five times today. Just guessing how many. At least I've been able to sleep at night for the  most part, so I know it isn't that bad yet, even though I'm pooping blood. The toilet bowl isn't totally full of blood, just comes out with the poop at a regular rate. I had a piece of chicken, a mouthful of potatoes, small piece of chocolate cake with no icing and drank hot chocolate and an aloe boba tea. That's all I had all day + some water. I drank about six glasses of water. In order to not have intestine problems I usually have to take only vitamin supplements, herbs, water and don't eat a thing for about a week. It's great for losing weight. Then when I feel up to it, depending on my reaction to food I slowly eat little bits of food and see how my body handles it.

Right now I'm in a bad way, but I think it will get better.

6 May 2016

It was a mistake eating dinner. I don't know why I thought I could do it. I'm not at my worst though, I've experienced much more horrible consequences to eating food than this. I was going to go for a run today since I'm doing the marathon, but changed my mind. Maybe I'll go tomorrow. This way, I'll eat nothing, but drink, then I'll be able to get some practice in. That way I won't die out there totally, and I'll have a bit of endurance built up. It's only six miles.

4th May 2016

Pee'd out my butt blood and poop more than went in. I don't understand how more liquid can leave than enters my body. I pooped liquid blood/poop about 30 times today and it's only 3:09 p.m. I didn't eat all day until 1:15 when I had a few samples at Costco where I work. 1:30 I got off work and then ate a bowl of these bread stick things with Greek Yogurt ranch dressing (one container 80 calories). I had about four hot chocolates though and four glasses of water or more.

Felt quite ill at work and just about didn't make it to the toilet every time I went. Feeling exhausted, but I have a lot to do. I have two more days to work.